… keep that in mind, Kat. have faith, keep strong, for Him.

current mood: frustrated

& so i am tearing. MAN, haven’t felt this in awhile. i guess somethings just keep coming back. so i had thought that my mom had changed her attitude. she did, for a long time. now she’s just back to her old attitude, along with her harsh words.

:’/

So, she just came home, smiling after their Church thing, that they go to. then, she said to me “you’re coming with us next Sunday, our ministry is having a Christmas party.” then i reply “oh, i cannot go ma, tita (my boyfriend’s mom) had already invited me to their Christmas Service on that Sunday, too.” then she just starts talking to me in her mad, raised tone saying “YOU’RE NO LONGER FUN TO BE WITH! YOU’RE ALWAYS WITH THEM, NEVER WITH US! YOU KNOW WHAT? WHATEVER!!!” & she said more than that, but i’ve rather not disclose her words.

what am i suppose to do? i had already said yes to them, & it’s only now my mom found out about their Christmas party. it’s not my fault! & i don’t like how she told me “you’re always with them!” oh wow, just because the past 2 weeks, i’ve been over at SJ. she’s got a big jealousy issue. then before she left, she’s all mumbling things, & slams the front door shut. like a little girl who doesn’t get what she wants. you know?

that hurts. she makes me feel like crap. never appreciates the things that i had to change about myself, so that she wouldn’t have that negative attitude.

ay nako!

Lord i know You have a purpose, as to why this is happening to me right now. i know that deep in my heart. i guess this is Your way of telling me to be strong, since i’ve prayed for strength.

gotta toughen out, Kat.